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It all started when I was signing a bunch of greeting cards for K, during the seminar yesterday:) I had three cards to send: A card for her engagement, that took place on 5th september! Her birthday card A good-luck card Well, 5th september is gone long back! What was I doing all this while? Ever heard of "procrastinating"? Yep, thats what I was doing. Finally, I managed to send the cards on time. But, by fedex overnight express, so that it reached her by today!!! If only, I could have done that long time back, at the time when it was actually needed, maybe much before that. On the day of the event, a good luck card ends up looking like a mere formality. But, off late, I have realized that I go by "Ab kare so aaj, aaj kare so kal" Which is so bad! I hate behaving like this. We lose out on many moments, days, months and years by postponing things. We wait for things to happen. For the time to come. But, time just flies by and you don't even realize the best time, just went past you. Especially, when you have not been that way before. I have known myself as someone who: Did her homework on time Never submitted an assignment late Had all her lab journals completed and ready for submission Someone who was regular Had the greeting cards stamped and posted to reach the destination atleast 2 days before the event Studied her stuff on just the day it was taught Utilized every single day of her study-leave Agreed, you get busy. This is not an excuse. Change is good, only if it is making you a better person. I dont like this change in me. I hate so much work accumulated in front of me, ready to be taken care of. I want myself to be the way I have always been. I do not want moments to pass me by. Meticulous. I am searching for the lost me.With a little effort in that direction, I will find myself.