I am a happy sadist

[Guys sorry, havent replied to any of your comments. I am just plain tired.Will reply tommorrow] I am sure, we all get exhausted at some point of time. Some get tired everyday, travelling etc! But, have you ever felt tired and still it doesnt affect you? I think for the past so many days, maybe months..I am working round the clock! I have not taken a single day off on my own to stay at home and chillax! No matter, how much I complain about the stress, which builds up eventually, I still feel thats my driving force! I am enjoying the stress. Its "happy holidays" and people are busy making New Year plans. Some are doing extensive travelling. For some its break. My Department looks desolate too. Everyone gone and few others who come at 9:00 and leave at 3:00. But, I am enjoying being there when everyone else is gone. I used to wonder, how it would be to stay and work during Christmas. The feeling gave me knots in the stomach. Beyond the 20th of December, I got this unnervy feeling that it would be lonely and sad here with everyone gone. Well, like they say people who have work to do, are seldom lonely. I was thinking of going and visiting my cousins who are scattered all around the US. Looked for some flight deals to go to NJ, but I killed the thought in my mind. I like the feeling that my heart irks to go nowhere:O Somehow, I am enjoying the 8:30 AM to 9:30 PM lab time. The feeling of working without break. The feeling that causes malaise in my whole body by the end of the day but doesn't let me sleep until wee hours of morning. The feeling that I dont get enough time to have long telephonic conversations. The feeling of drafting endless spreadsheets, of getting frustrated, of not having enough hours for me to think of miscellaneous matters. Of running down to the nearest gas station in the evening for the much needed caffeine and finally of coming home to my blog to write everything down with a tea in my hand and sleep in my eyes! I am sure I will go crazy if this continues, but as of now,my enthusiasm for work is peaked and I like it!