Of having contacts and feeling disconnected

I was returning home last at night 1:30 It was an empty road with only two cars. Mine and that of my friends. Who was only driving ahead of me to take me to an intersection from where she was to continue on her way further. At this time, the song from Green day "I walk an empty street" was just ringing in my head. I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone It was a long drive from my home and just like always i flipped my phone and glanced through my "Recent calls history" to dial-a-friend. And let me take you through my current bizarre state of mind. These days I have started filtering my calls. I answer the phone only when I want to and if I want to. India calls do not fall into this "filter" Sometimes, I don't return calls for days. No, I am not acting pricey but its just that I dont think I have that motivation to talk to friends with whom I would rather not talk to at that time. And, thankfully my friends are supportive of that whimisical mood of mine, hoping that it would not last too long:) In my phone, I have a total of 110 'contacts" including the; 'Miscellaneous" people whom you call upon to 'fix' your problems..such as the landlord, insurance company, the AAA or the DVD rental place or your travel agent! And then there are some whom you hear from once in 6 months or so. Some who aren't really your friends and who call on you ONLY when they need a ride to the nearby grocery store. Man! be selfish, but atleast be diplomatic about it;) Some who the moment they call, you hit the "END"button of your cell phone, mainly because you need to be in a certain mood to talk to them, or maybe theyr touch that wrong nerve (though, in my case there are hardly anyone with whom I am tempted to behave in this manner) Then there are some whose numbers are imprinted in your memory in this manner, that you don't really need to save their number in your phonebook And then there are your "Speed dial"friends. I have only 6 very close friends who are on my speed dial And then there are some with whom you end up just "hmmming"most of the times. I don't know why, but conversations just dont' go anywhere beyond hmming in such cases Some (read Indian) whom you happen to meet at the grocery store. End up conversing and ultimately exchanging phone numbers. But later, you never end up calling and they never do either. It has happened with me once, when I met someone named "Pooja" at Wal-Mart and unfortunately I stored her name as just Pooja only to realize that I have 6 other friends named Pooja, adding to my confusion. Espeically, coz I dont remember phone numbers. And then there are some who don't even get to your 'list of contacts'. Don't ask me why. I am generally very frugal when it comes to storing numbers and avoid cluttering my phonebook;) Coz once in the phonebook, its hard to erase the contact And those people who are in the Recent call history are the ones with whom I can talk to at any point of time. And generally, these days..its only them that I talk to and can talk for hours And some with whom conversations seem to continue forever and you are still left wondering, whether it would last forever......... [Don't you sometimes think, that this tiny piece of gadget is indeed your lifeline??]